New Stream of Consciousness writing! (From Stream of consciousness Saturday http://lindaghill.com/2016/01/15/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-jan-1616/). I hope you enjoy, I love this writing style.
What do I write that starts with what?
Wow! Too many ideas on my head. Too many things going around. Worries, dreams, ideas, things to be done, things that I would like to do, plans, dialogs not made, dialogs pending, dialogs with myself.
It’s just tiresome!
How so many things can go through my head at once. How can all those things be around and not giving peace and quietness to the mind, to the soul. If I could just shut up a little all those things going on, I could do more things. But how do I do that? While I write I realize about all that I think. I think, I think, I think. Please shut up and do! Let me do, Let me concentrate, let me go out and play! I want to cry, I want to scream, it’s not the first time so much goes on around in my head and those moments where the one I needed more rest. I need activities to keep myself busy, to distract my mind and let me rest. Let me rest, oh please, just let me rest and live.
I want to have silent when I want.
I try to meditate, but no.
All these things from the past, from the present, the fears and plans for the future come there once and again and just don’t let me meditate, don’t let me rest, don’t me… go
I stop writing for some seconds and at least for that time my mind is quiet
Just like after running you feel so tired that your minds just shuts up.
I should go back to running.
Or keep writing
Or run and write (not at the same time)
This seems to tire my body, and give me some rest.
Run, I’ll go back to running
Write, I’ll keep on writing.
SJ
Simply Conversing 
It’s amazing how many thoughts I have while meditating, The only thing that seems to help is letting them pass, and returning, every time I realize I’m thinking, to the focal point. Also, tai chi and swimming are very meditative for me.
It takes time and practice, but I’m seeing gradual improvements, and i’m definitely calmer and more centered the rest of the time. So, even if I’m not ‘good’ at it, I’m better than I was, and so I’ll keep on going.
Wishing you the comfort of quiet.
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Great for you! Keep practicing and you’ll get better. I hope I can do the same.
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We can root for each other! For now, just noticing how often my fertile mind throws thoughts around, even plotting stories when I’m attempting to meditate, is a good step in the right direction.
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I liked this very very much. I made a comment but it seem to have disappeared.
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Oh! I don’t know what could have happened to your comment. Thank for stopping by and reading.
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That’s an excellent stream of consciousness. That’s exactly what’s it like some days. Good luck with focusing – running sounds like a brilliant way of putting some of those endless thoughts to rest- and writing – of course
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